Cheers to being 40

10 years ago I thought I had checked all me boxes. Little did I know what my 30s would bring. I thought I had it all. I thought I knew it all. I thought I knew grief. I thought I knew triumph, failure, heartbreak, success and happiness.

But nothing could prepare me for the decade that made me a mother. For the decade that made me see myself and life in a different way. I have new dreams and goals to reach. Sometimes I wonder if I am too old to pursue these dreams. But someone once told me: “how else could you live life?” And they are right.

While I am sitting here with my (not so) little boys in my lap, I have faith that this decade will surprise me yet again. I know I have been blessed to have the privilege to turn 40, I have lost friends before they reached this milestone. I miss friends, my mom and my uncle to whom I had to say goodbye to in these last 10 years. They remind me that tomorrow isn’t promised.

So far, I feel I manifested my dreams by saying it, living it and putting the work in to reach my dreams. In this spirit I am ready for what is next.

I dream of watching my kids grow, contributing positively to our community, publishing a book, learn to play the guitar and travel the world with my kids. At 50 I hope with all my heart that I can look back and marvel at the surprises that this decade brings.

Cheers to being 40